Don’t know if you remember me, it’s been a long time since I was on here last. Things happend and my world came crumbling down… I just couldn’t get it together and instead of being strong and fighting for myself, I let myself go and decided I wasn’t important enough to fight for…

Needless to say I gained all my weight back and I am back to 198.5 just short before my “magic” number of 200 which I promised myself never to see again. If I don’t wake up and get it together I am affraid I will lose this battle forever. So here I am asking for your forgiveness for just leaving you guys…

I am important and I have to fight for myself. I can not use everything that happens in life as an excuse for letting go of myself. I have to realize that even though a lot of things that happen in life are not in my control…losing weight and getting healthy is all up to me and nobody else. My goal always has been to be healthy and to be happy, but I lost sight of that goal …yet again….I know now though that the only person in the world that can bring me there is myself…. I lost focus and I gave up on myself, but I am ready to fight the battle and will keep reminding myself every single day ….

I AM IMPORTANT, I AM WORTH IT AND I AM IN CONTROL OF REACHING MY GOAL!

Love you guys! And if you let me I am thinking about joining a challenge or two again

I just received an email from my Mom, a very good family friend is fighting brain tumors for the last 10 years and always won the battle. He has to fight another one and this time the doctors say there is nothing more they can do for him. The only thing they did was release the pressure so he was able to see again, but they say there will be no chemo no radiation nothing…. they gave him only 4 weeks to live. I know doctors were wrong before and I hope and pray to God that this is one of those miracles in the making. He is a wonderful person, always there for everybody. He doesn’t have one bad bone in his body. He is a very athletic person, very strong and very big (muscles)…it just seems wrong that somebody who looks so healthy and strong would have only 4 weeks to live. I mean you look at him and would think he is one of the healthiest people alive…. so I really hope his strength will help him to fight this and show the doctors that they are all wrong.

His name is Michael and I am asking all of you to please pray for him and maybe if we all pray it will be strong enough for another miracle. And even if you don’t believe in God, please pray to…. you never know how much power your prayer might have ….

I thank you from the bottom of my heart… Love you all ((HUGS))

Now I know that I can not stay away from Buddyslim and all you wonderful people. So taking a full break from BS just won’t work for me And I don’t want to stop eating healthy either….or working out…. So here is what I will do for this week (or not do )

I will not count calories, but still watch what I am eating, (Might not be the best idea, but my brain needs a break… no more numbers )

I will not count my calories burned while working out, (I will still log my workouts, but I want worry about if I did enough. I will do what I feel like and that’s it - only for this week - I know that I have to work hard to lose the weight)

I will not comment as much in the challenges I am in, as I normally do, (I spend way to much time on here)

I will not read any blogs (doesn’t mean I don’t care, I just really need to get my brain thinking about other things for a while),

I will not count how many ounces of water I had (don’t get me wrong, keeping track of it, makes me drink the amount I should - but as said before, I want to give my head a break)

So, I will come here in the mornings, check all the challenges I am in and won’t be on for the rest of the day. I will still keep track of my girls on Longest Loser 6 and Commit to be fit, but besides these two I will step back a  little.

I hope it will help to clear my head and get my motivation back

HOPE YOU LOVE THIS CHALLENGE AS MUCH AS I DO AND WILL JOIN
THE MORE THE MERRIER

IT’S AN EASY CHALLENGE, ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS WEIGH IN ONCE A WEEK AND IF YOU FIND SOME TIME IN BETWEEN TO CHEER FOR EVERYBODY THAT WOULD BE EVEN BETTER

THE RULES:

WAY IN ONCE A WEEK!
IF YOU HAVE A LOSS YOU STAY IN :)  (every ounce counts )
A GAIN OR MAINTAIN YOU ARE OUT
YOU WILL HAVE ONE BYE WEEK, MEANING ONCE DURING THIS COMPETITION YOU CAN CHOOSE TO TAKE YOUR BYE WEEK AND AS LONG AS YOUR NEXT WEIGH IN IS LESS THAN YOUR LAST YOU ARE STILL IN.
FOR NO SHOWS: THE FIRST WEEK WILL COUNT AS YOUR BYE WEEK, THE SECOND YOU WILL BE OUT

WEIGH IN WILL START 4/27/09 - 5/3/09!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 COME AND JOIN US!

Quit Yo-Yo Dieting and Get Real Results!
How many times have you started a diet in your life? Probably a lot more than just once. If you want to lose weight, you have to do it the right way. I’ll tell you right now: Skipping meals or following an extremely low-calorie diet is not in any way, shape, or form the answer for losing any amount of weight. Extreme calorie deprivation only sets you up for yo-yo dieting, or “weight cycling.” Your weight will continue to go up and down for the rest of your life. If you want permanent weight loss, then listen to me.

The lack of understanding about the right way to lose weight can set people up for big-time failure. Even if you do have initial success on one of these extreme diets, the toll it takes on your body is not at all worth it. Extreme diets that promise big weight loss in a short amount of time cut out macronutrients like carbs and fats — which is horrible for your hormone balance and your metabolism.

Why are you in this pattern of fasting, then slipping up and bingeing, then fasting again? Maybe you desperately want to lose weight for a special occasion and figure that only a couple of weeks at 800 calories a day can give you results you want. And maybe it does…but then what happens when you go back to a normal eating pattern? Simply put, you’re toast. While you weren’t taking in enough calories, your levels of T3, the thyroid hormone that boosts your metabolism, plummeted and you slowed down your metabolism. Also, your response to insulin has taken a hit, so instead of glucose entering your cells, where it can be used for energy, your body lets it roam around in your blood, where it can cause trouble. Your sensitivity to leptin (which regulates appetite) is also reduced, so you’re never quite sure when to say, “Enough!” at the table. Plus, the hormone that tells your brain you’re starving, called ghrelin, shoots higher than ever. That is just the beginning of your problems. When you inevitably start gaining back weight, you start the cycle of yo-yo dieting all over again. It gets more and more frustrating every time you do it.

It’s time to end this vicious cycle, and the way to do that is not to “diet” but rather to make a lifestyle change. Shift your thinking from merely “cutting back” to simply eating proper portions of the right foods. Whole, nutritious foods will repair, nourish, and support every cell so that your body will work for you and not against you. Be good to your body and it will be good to you!

SO ANYBODY INTERESTED IN JOINING? HERE IT IS: LONGEST LOSER 6!

I DON’T EVEN REMEMBER WHO USED TO BE IN THE TEAM(S) ANYMORE. IF YOU ARE A MEMBER OF EITHER ONE OF THE TWO TEAMS PLEASE COME BACK, CHECK IN AND LET’S KEEP THIS CHALLENGE ALIVE. ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS CHECK IN AT LEAST 1-2 A WEEK, LET US KNOW HOW YOU ARE DOING AND WEIGH IN EVERY SATURDAY! NOT HARD

MARIE (TEAM CAPTAIN - DIVINE 09) WOULD LOVE TO SEE HER TEAM COME BACK AND SO WOULD THE FAB TEAM. BETTE JO (CAPTAIN - FAB) IS TRYING SO HARD TO KEEP THIS TEAM ALIVE.

 OKAY, THAT’S THE ONLY WAY I KNEW HOW I MIGHT REACH MOST OF YOU GUYS AS WE DON’T HAVE TEAM ROOSTER ANYMORE, BUT WILL GET SOME UP AND RUNNING FOR THE NEXT WEEK.

COME ON GUYS….. DON’T LET THIS CHALLENGE END LIKE ALL THE OTHERS

I don’t want anybody to be mad at me either So please don’t throw rotten tomatoes at me. ;) (To my Heartbreakin’ Rockstars: I LOVE YOU ALL :)  )

Well, I guess I will be thinking about it and have to decide what I will be doing :confused:

((HUGS))

 Thanks a bunch

I am going bunkers if that keeps going like that. I see other people eating food they shouldn’t be eating, not working out all the time and still losing weight and here I am counting calories, working out pretty hard (at least I think so) and nothing happens. It’s driving me nuts.

Don’t worry, I am not going to give up, I guess I just have to keep trying…. I learned a few things already about my body (not necessary in that order):

1. Sodium = biggest enemy I have right now,

2. Water = makes a big difference (if I remember to drink it )

3. Treadmill = working out on the treadmill alone is not working for me.

4. WATP and TAEBO  workouts = they seem to work for me, burning lots of calories while doing the DVD’s, but guess not enough to lose weight.

5. Banana before workout = WORKS! (Thanks Nancy )

6. Buddyslim = being here and having all you buddies is sooooooooo working for me If it wasn’t for this site and all the great people here I would’ve given up a long time ago.

7. Planing meals = working, I don’t eat junk or fast food as a quick fix meal anymore.

And I think I figured out this week that everything white (white bread, white rice, potatoes, pasta etc) is my enemy number two when it comes to losing weight. Even if I stay within my calories, fat, protein etc. it’s working against me.

So for this week I am planning on changing yet more. Nothing white to eat for the whole week. (Well, don’t know if it’s possible to cut it out completely, but I will whenever possible) Let’s see if that does the trick. I don’t want to change to many things at once, or I won’t find out what’s working and what isn’t. Guess losing the weight will take me a little longer but as long as I get there I’ll be okay. Maybe nuts at the end, but at least I will be a slim nut

If you guys have any suggestions or ideas, please share. I am like a sponge right now, trying to learn as much as possible

Love you all! ((HUGS))